ohhellocrissy

oh HELLO

My flexibility is not infinite. And while it’s one of my favorite things about me, and makes my life easier to navigate, it’s something that seems to often get taken advantage of or, more optimistically, people don’t realize how malleable I am being (and I say this as a reminder to myself. I have a voice and am an active participant in my relationships.)

Recognizing the finite-ness of my flexibility means I get to decide (usually) where and when I flex it. I want to bend and be the thing you (collective) need, but I also don’t want to break.

I’m thinking about this because I’ve had a very busy summer (moving, new job, new house, new housemate(s), reestablishing myself in community all since June) and a lot of that busy-ness has been just to meet some base needs, for myself or for others. And quite a few of the activities I’ve been choosing for myself are rewarding but high energy. Though lately, even when I get a chance at some down time, it ends up being a high energy through no (or little) fault of my own. There’s nothing inherently wrong with that, I’m mentioning it just as an update/context builder. It seems to be a thing on my mind.

While living in a world that increasingly robs us of our spare time and the ability to enjoy it, I want to be soft and restful when I have the chances to be those things. Soft, and restful.

And I want to keep up the writing habit that is facilitating the 18,000 words a month pace I started in May. I ended up taking a longer break from writing than I anticipated needing. That’s ok. But it’s not my preference.

And I want rest. I don’t want to burn out. I’m ready for slow again. I’m ready for intentional again. I’m ready to not have to be so damn flexible just to break even.

I’m ready for Autumn.

Summer, I want to love you more, but I don’t. You’re not my season and I can accept that. You’re a lot and you’re everywhere, and girl I’ve been there. Pulling back and saving a part of myself, for myself, that makes me a better me for everyone else. You teach me that every year, Summer. I think there’s a way to be rest-ful during your yearly reign, and I think maybe we (society) get that wrong.

oh DON’T MIND THE RAMBLE

That being said, I’ve had a pretty positive Summer so far. Just really exhausting and filled with a lot of overwhelming. Just overwhelming, kinda everywhere. I don’t want to be over or under whelmed, just regular whelmed for a little while.

oh AFFIRMATIONS

Yeah, that’s right, affirmations. This is just a spit-ball, rapid-fire, quickly typed ramble and we’re doing some affirmations. I’m going back to some basics in my ritual practices and I’m getting back to using affirmations in my daily life. The title of this post is one of my favorites. So, here a few that I’ve been loving…

I am a work of art – cherished and admired

I attract abundance in all forms

I am safe, I am supported, I am protected

oh GOODBYE

If you’ve made it this far. Wow! Thanks! I appreciate you. I want to say that I’ll be back soon, but *gestures vaguely about* the chaos. xo