ohhellocrissy

oh HELLO

“Nothing like world shattering grief to really put some things into perspective. I’m still putting together what exactly that looks like, but I have a strong inclination that it’ll involve (more) chaos.”

I am an oracle. The chaos continues, but this time I feel so ready for it. I’m learning what I want to say yes to in this season and that makes saying no to anything that doesn’t support me in my goals so much easier. Sure, I still overthink most things and my anxiety is making it’s presence known in new and exciting ways.

But damn, it feels great to know your worth and what you want. I recommend it to anyone and everyone. It’s not easy, but I have yet to presented with an easy option, so I may as well pick the option(s) that works for me. Boundaries, who knew!

oh PAINTING

Regurgitating the same as previous updates, I just don’t have the time or energy or the set up to work as a painter right now. Right now oh PAINTING is (will remain) a work in progress. So there’s not much to say other than that if you’d like to commission me to do a painting, or if you’ve seen something I’ve done you’d like to purchase, please reach out.

oh PHOTOGRAPHY

I’ve been doing more and more with my camera. I can see that continuing and once a few logistical things get sorted. I’m in no rush. It feels good to pick it up occasionally, just for shits n giggles.

oh WRITING/soft anarchy

I’m killing soft anarchy. Once I noticed some unwanted stalking on all of my social media accounts, I also noticed a huge spike in activity on my websites and I made some decisions about how and where I spend my time online. This has been a thing I’ve been thinking of since November of last year. I’ve been slowly pulling back on accounts that no longer feel like a fun or safe space. And once I felt unsafe I made the decision of pull the plug on the long writing project I abandoned almost a year ago.

Honestly, thank you to the people who made me uncomfortable enough I felt the need to make some fast decisions. But mostly, thank you me, I chose myself and my own happiness, best choice ever. Thank you me for being willing to embrace the nightmare that leads to freedom.

I’ve written over 14,000 words, a whole rough draft of a whole novel I’ve wanted to write since I was a kid. I might not ever do anything more with it (except that I am, I’m actively making it a full length whole-assed book) but doing something I’ve never done, and feeling that sense of accomplishment. That’s my kink.

other

The grief over the loss of Murphy has been is still deep, profound and at times, unrelenting. She was the softest and the dearest part of my life (but I’m finding soft and dear in new places, even when that hurts). The rhythms of my world were disrupted (but I’m working on stability) and I’m still will always be recovering from that.

What does moving on look like? (It looks like this.)

oh GOODBYE

If you’ve made it this far. Wow! Thanks! I appreciate you. I want to say that I’ll be back soon, but *gestures vaguely about* the chaos. xo